im scared

I don't know.
I feel like its just happening again.
that feeling of where you feel oh so vulnerable
yet feel oh so safe. its not the first time I've been
familiar with this kind of feeling. I've been through it
before. but i don't know if this is the real thing. or
is it too early to know now? I'm just scared. I'm scared
for myself. That maybe i have to go back to being lonely but
also I'm scared that i won't feel this way again.
i don't know.